Who's fault is it????

I LOVE YOU...
Who's fault is it???
Mine that i trusted you???
Or yours that you made me believe you????

I AM MISSING YOU....
Who's fault is it????
Mine that i cant stop thinking about you???
Or yours that you never waste a thought on me.....??

I WANNA TALK TO YA badly but cant gather the courage to call ya.....
Who's fault is it???
Mine that i dunno what i will talk about after a few statements and i am scared we'll end up fighting????
Or yours that u end up all my statements and questions with a single word or two and never bother to initiate any conversation????

I WANNA MEET YA... But we dont...
Who's fault is it????
Mine that i cant convince you enough to meet me????
Or yours that you are tooo busy for me but not for the rest of your friends?????

I WANT YOU TO LOVE ME... As much as i do....
Who's fault is it????
Mine that i am being greedy... asking for more than what i deserve????
Or yours that you are being a miser and stubborn enuff not to let go of your emotion????

I HAVE STARTED HATING MYSELF....
Who's fault is it????
Mine that i never took myself seriously....
Or yours that you see everything negative in me.....???

I dunno what am i supposed to do....
Hang on???? Move on???? Cry??? Laugh???? Complain???? Argue????
Do what????
And this time i know who's fault it is.... ITS MINE....
Bcuz i am forgetting the fact that some decisions in life are meant to b taken alone... For your benefit and for others... And i am being a coward by not facing the reality..... The reality is that i am not good enough for you..... BUT.... That doesnt mean i am not good enough.... There definitely is someone, for whom i'll just not be good enough but the best.... And till the time i find him, its better i stop insulting myself.....
As the night comes to an end, i pray to the ALMIGHTY to gimme strength to stand up and do whats right for me.... AMEN...!!!!
But before it all ends.... Before i give up all my emotions... Before its the last time we hear each other's voice... Before the relationship slips into a deep slumber.... I need to tell you something..... I LOVE U.... and probably WILL ALWAYS DO....!!!!